The feeling

Once upon a time there was a feeling. And this feeling was hunting me over and over again. I was constantly fighting it, but never managed to completely defeat it. Whenever I thought I had got rid of it, it always came back, reminding me it is still there and it will always be a part of my life.

"But why? Why don't you leave me alone? Why don't you let me live?" I asked every time.

"Because! It is not my fault I’m here with you again! Believe me, I’m not the guilty one!

"What do you mean? Whose fault is it then? Can you at least tell me this?"

"But you don't need me to answer you that! You already know the answer and you know it well enough!"

"Why? Are you playing with me? It is not enough that you mess with my soul, now you want to mess with my mind also?! Seriously???"

"No, you seriously! Frankly, I’m not here because of me, but because of you! This is the whole truth and you have to face it! You are used to always blame others or other things for your suffering! Just be honest with yourself and accept the fact that you are the only guilty one for everything you don't like in your life! Just face it! And maybe after you do this, you will also be able to change something and to build yourself the life you have always wanted!"