...once
again. And the first time in this year. I guess is not quite a great start, and
it even took me one week to realize what’s wrong with me. Depression, of course
this was the answer! Just under my nose and still did not see it in time. Well,
at least now I know the name of my disease and damn sure I know the cause of it
(no, I won’t tell it to you! Although you may easily
guess it…). It is said that once you find the right diagnose, it’s easy to find
the cure, but this is not the case. Depression has not an easy cure, because
you just cannot cure life, as hard as you might try. Well, I guess that if you
could, then the term “depression” wouldn't have existed in the first place. I really
don’t want to falsely improve my condition by taking who knows what pills. Pills
won’t change reality; pills won’t make my life more beautiful or more…lively. They
are just a method to foul your brain, to mess up with your inside chemistry so
you would have the illusion that you are happier now. But what an absurdity –
nothing has changed in your life, things are still upside down, and still, you
are supposed to feel better! Seriously?!
“Oh, life is wonderful now that I’m on a
treatment!”
“I’m glad for you! Are things better now?”
“Oh, no, everything is just the same! Just that
my brain is high!”
So, people, I strongly believe that the
only viable cure for depression is the same thing as the cause – life! Life turns
you down, and only life can bring you up again! Right now, life doesn't give a
shit about my depression! And I don’t give a shit about life! No, I don’t have
any dark intentions, but just to be even.
There is not anything that can make me feel
better, but there is someone that can. I do have an antidote, but it doesn't come in a box of pills, is just a person. The down side of this is that I cannot
have it with me whenever and wherever I want to. And this is also the cause of
depression (it's more complicated than that).
Well, I would like life to give me the solution to this dilemma and
booom! the depression is gone! I don’t care if it’s gone with the wind or with something
else; I just want it out of my life!
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