Once upon a time there was a
feeling. And this feeling was hunting me over and over again. I was constantly
fighting it, but never managed to completely defeat it. Whenever I thought I
had got rid of it, it always came back, reminding me it is still there and it
will always be a part of my life.
"But why? Why don't you
leave me alone? Why don't you let me live?" I asked every time.
"Because! It is not my
fault I’m here with you again! Believe me, I’m not the guilty one!
"What do you mean? Whose
fault is it then? Can you at least tell me this?"
"But you don't need me
to answer you that! You already know the answer and you know it well
enough!"
"Why? Are you playing
with me? It is not enough that you mess with my soul, now you want to mess with
my mind also?! Seriously???"
"No, you seriously! Frankly,
I’m not here because of me, but because of you! This is the whole truth and you
have to face it! You are used to always blame others or other things for your
suffering! Just be honest with yourself and accept the fact that you are the
only guilty one for everything you don't like in your life! Just face it! And
maybe after you do this, you will also be able to change something and to build
yourself the life you have always wanted!"
